✝ Dying gothic deer photoshoot with Askar Ibragimov ✝

© Askar Ibragimov

Enjoying a moment of harmony and silence. The last colors slowly fading away, taking me with them into an eternity of peace in the darkness.

Hello darlings ♥

This summer we did this photoshoot together with Askar Ibragimov. We've been taking about working together on something for a while now and it was left to my brain to plan something. I had been thinking about this dark deer-like photoshoot I would like to do. 

The story behind the idea is a sad deer all on its own. It has no companions, the home forest is empty and silent. Everything seems like dead. The world around the deer stands still in total quietness. The deer in lonely and sad, soon to be dying. There is no hope or happiness. The deer is till a mighty creature of the magical forest, saying goodbyes. 

This is a combination of depression, loneliness and being left out. Lots of my personal feelings. One thing that has influenced into this, is the fact that so many forests are being taken down for the benefit of humans. Finnish forests are especially dear to me and they are continuously building around my home city, in places they should not. There is this big area right next to where we live to be taken down for new apartment complexes, but there is this new big area being done just near here. There is no need to destroy a new piece of the forest! Especially when there are nests and routes of flying squirrels, that need to be protected! The city has just accepted the plans for the area, but some nature associations are trying to make a complaint about it. Sorry for rambling about this so much, just red new turns about this and it made me very sad and angry. Nature protection is something I'm very passionate about. 

© Askar Ibragimov

 Feeling like falling, losing my grip, leaving behind. The isolation of being an outsider. Surrounded by darkness. The part where happiness came from seems to be locked away. The hole is getting deeper. The light barely seen anymore.

© Askar Ibragimov

Dance with the hidden language of the forest. 🍃

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| Horns: Deadfine.fi | Hair: Wig is fashion | Necklace: H&M |

| Blouse: Fan plus friend | Skirt: Corset story | Circle lenses: Uniqso |

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Behind the scenes

 Before and after photoshoot selfies~ ^_^

© Askar Ibragimov

We had an assistance with the light by a friend of the photographer. She really had to work to get the light to stay up. The place where we shot is a wide power line in the middle of the forest and there was some wind and that big of a hing definitely grabs the wind. 

We played with some corn syrup fake blood as well. It was super sticky and had all sorts of tiny pieces from the forest stuck in them! We tried to get this one shot of me lying in the ground, but I haven't really decided if the end result is working or not. Gotta give it time. For now it will stay unshown. Btw I got so many damn mosquito bites from this trip! They just love my blood. Think I counted 16 ones from my other ankle and leg only! They swell up a lot and are super itchy for a long time, at least a week, but usually longer. 

 Always goofing around and making faces, yup, that's me! x)

Let me know if you have any thoughts about this set,
would love to hear them! ♡

❤~ Saija Sasetar